3 days and a wake up

Just talked to the hospital pre-admission to the hospital, this the first for me to go to this hospital, it's one of the newer hospital. I have to admitted the ride up to our cabin was not a fun one. I suffered all day yesterday and today. Good thing I have such husband who does almost everything around the house.

4 days and a wake up

Well we are up here in the beautiful state of NC. We are only here till Sunday and then we head home to get ready for surgery on Tuesday. I took this picture of the roses outside our back up here at out cabin

Eight days and a wake up

It's Sunday morning I am sitting watching Golden Girls, now you know how bored I am. My back is still hurting me but I am finding out I have to watch which medicine I take will the pain pills.
Probably will be a slow Sunday with out Rory being, and for some reasons my son and daughter-in law have decide for some reason to stop talking to me not sure if something I said or did. They only been married almost 3 weeks, so I hope there isn't any problem in love land.

Nine days and A wake up

Ok it's Saturday and memorial weekend, when I was growning up this meant the beginning of summer. Now being grown, served 20 years in the Army and having too many to count that has or it still serving in the military. No, I didn't grow up in a military home, my dad did serve two years in Coast Guard, my mom was a nurse not in the service. Yet my oldest brother served 26 years in the Air Force , my second oldest brother served 30 years in the Army, and I served 20 years in the Army with my husband spend 24 years in the Army. I still have serving in the Army 2 nephews and one son. I never saw war, so I guess I was luckily on that few point. My nephews and son and cousin have seen war. My one cousin committ suicide a couple years ago. My nephew who got out after serving 14 years and too many trip to wars zone messed him.
But I am grateful for our service people, they do deserve to be honor or memory of them. We have too many your service people still dying.

Ten days and a wake up

I thought you might enjoy some of these pictures from around house here in Florida. These were taken today. My husband started planted this three years ago and this is where it is now.

My

These outside my front door, the flowers don't know it's not Christmas .

11 days and a wake up

I went and saw the Dr, was supposed to be short and sign paper again. I got in and out before my schedule time so I guess that was a good thing. The nurse who took my blood pressure with a broken cup, it squeeze my arm so tight it left a red mark. Took three times to finally get my blood pressure. Of course the DR came in for 20seconds and left. I signed the paper and was out of the office. Now All I have to wait now. I can't say the time can go fast enough. We have a quiet weekend planned, sic Rory's and his family are out camping till Saturday and then he will be back on Monday.

12 days and a wake up

Today started with seeing my 4 years old nephew sleeping next to our bed. What a great way to wake with the little voice saying "Good morning".
I then head down to my DR office to get my blood drawn for the surgery, to find out they couldn't do all the tests. So I turned around and headed for back north to Rockledge to go to the hospital to get every thing done in one trip. So tomorrow I will go and once again sign my paperwork for the procedure.
I can hardly wait to get this over with so I can start living again.

13 days and a wake up

I just got a call from the Dr, I have to go down and resigned the paper work caused its been 30 days since I signed the paperwork. Only the 3rd time I have signed them, hopefully this is the last time. Raining weather here so my back is really hurting. At least the rain has started.
Tomorrow I am going Down to do my blood work for my procedure, it's less then two weeks now.

14 days and a wake-up

A new week starts today, Rory stated all night with us, his dad had overtime. Hubby is out putting a fence at our rental property. I wish the next two weeks would just fly by, so I can get this surgery and get I with my life. I am tired if being in pain almost 95 percent of the time of the day.
Today Rory has takweo today at 5 and then the rest of the day is free. I heard another one of my friend fusion was canceled for this week, they didn't believe when I told then for some reason all insurances aren't approving fusion, yet they thought they got approved but found out two days before surgery was schedule they canceled it. I feel sorry for them, at least my DR doesn't did approve my surgery so I didn't have my hope built up by the Dr. I would lie if  I didn't say I have fear for this up coming surgery. I really just want my life back to be able function like I used to.
Rory did good at takwon was good today. He is finally in bed.
Closing this for the day.

15 days and a wake up and another week starts

It's Sunday morning and not a lot sleep last night because of my back and how I couldn't get comfortable in bed. My older brother and his wife leaves for GA this morning, and life will get back to normal.
My back is hurting more today because of  the weather. I think it's going to be a lazy day till Rory gets here. We get him for four days this week. His father has overtime today at Disney.
Back from having supper with mom and older brother and Rory and my hubby. Another week starts and should be a busy week. John is putting a new fence up at our rental property.
Not much else to write about will write more tomorrow .

Rory big day and Tyler big day

No matter what age you are sometime something you do is big for the day. My 4 year old nephew is getting his orange belt in takweo and my 18 year old nephew is graduation from high school. One thing we can be glad about one is at 10 in the morning and the other one is at 7 in the evening.
I had rough night last night betweens our two dogs and my back I got little or no sleep.
Well Rory did well today , even after not having a good night sleep. We went over to his house for supper tonight.
I decided not to go to Tyler graduation from high school as I would have to climb the bleacher, and after last night I just didn't feel up to it.
Mike ( my son) is meeting with my older brother to see if he can help him buy a house. Hopefully it will work, Mike need a break right now.

Time for family meeting about our Mom

Well today should be an interesting day for us, my three siblings and myself are going to sit down and talk to mom about her future. My one older brother has a higher price range of living then we do. He lives in GA in an expensive area, but he can afford it, he has a house out of Southern Living book, on the other hand we live in Florida a very modest house, that we enjoy living in. I have no problem having Mom move in with us, but I don't want to complete remodel our home.
Well the lasagna is made, dishes are all clean, only thing left to do is salad plate and set the tables. My SIL is coming over to help me with that. I am only having 10 for supper but still take time and energy to do all of it.
Supper went well no one kill each other with all my sibling, tomorrow will be another big day. Takweon will be going on Saturday, for Rory to get his orange belt.

18 days and a wake up before my SCS surgery

We got up early this morning as our nephew was coming for an early visit today, both parents working today, one at Disney and the other one has jury duty. I am waiting for my DIL to come over to clean the house. I will be taking Rory to speech class today, his last class for the summer and then he start VPK in August. I cant believe he will be 5 in October, where or where does the time go.
A busy weekend, my second oldest brother is coming in from GA with his wife for his grandson graduation from high school and then my nephew goes for his first orange belt for taekwondo on Saturday. Plus this weekend we are preparing the family for my mom to move into our home sometime in the next couple months. Going to be a busy time, and change for us. From 1999 - 2002 we had my paternal grandmother (age 99 when she died) lived with us and both my husband and I worked full time and it was rough. Since we are both retired this should be a little easier, thank goodness for my hubby who is so much help that I couldn't do without him So we start our new life with my mother, at least this time it should be a little easier with both of my brother living here in Cocoa area to help out. I have my younger brother who live in the same neighborhood and hopefully my son will be moving into his grandmother house and that will be more help.
Here is a picture of Rory and Curious George

 Today has been somewhat busy, my DIL came to clean my house, of course for some reason when someone is coming clean you clean so they don't really see how dirty your house really is, I used to laugh mom cleaning before her clean lady came,now I am doing the same thing.
I took my nephew to his last day of speech class today before summer break. My SIL didn't get selected for jury duty.
I then went to try to find a bed for my mom. Went to Badcock, looks like they might be cheapest for the adjustable bed we are looking for.
Tomorrow will be busy as I am feeding my family for a family meeting, to discuss my mother moving in with us. I know when that happens my life will change.

19 days and A wake up

Today is a big day we are going to go see Curiours George at the library, my nephew had been talking about this for the past month, I just hope it measure up to all he expect. He is only four so anything like this will excite him.
My back still giving me a hard time, now my stomach is giving me problem so I have to watch the pain medicine. If it wasn't one then its something else.
Well I started this yesterday, but with Rory being here, I share my Ipad with him and just trying to find things for him to do keeps me busy.
I hopping to go to our cabin in NC before my surgery, but not sure if we will get there with babysitting duty and all.
My brother who lives in GA is coming in tomorrow (Thursday) for his oldest grandson graduation from high school, he has a full scholarship to Florida State University, this really a great thing for his family, as my niece has been a single mom and raised two son. My niece we always worry about how she would do being a mom, Took het couple years to figure the world out, but she did and has two good sons, she can be proud of them.

20 days and a wake up

Well we had a good Mother's Day supper at one of our local restaurant with four generation of family   At one table, the youngest being 20 months and the oldest 88 years old. My mom wasn't feeling very good so became the grumpy old lady, I love her but there are time that I get so frustrate with her. The sort good - bad news, she is moving with us within the next 2 months. She lives around the block from us, so it won't take long to move her. We are hopeful that my son and his family will be moving into her home. In our subdivision we have my brother and SIL and young nephew also live in this subdivision. There at three other families who have majority of their family living here.
Well the day is growning to a close, my granddaughter came to visit for a little while this evening. Just put Rory to bed. So I'll close for the evening.

Mother's Day and 21 days and a wake up

Happy Mother's Day to all. Our family are going to an local steakhouse that we have been going to for almost 10 years. It's a tradition we started, because it made no sense for Mom or me to cooked meals for the family. We just take turn paying for it each year, this year my son will be there with his new wife and my granddaughter.
My SIL and R my nephew and myself went to Disney, we didn't go in the parks this time caused of my back, but we had fun at the hotel and eating with the cowboys. My B and SIL both work for Disney so we get good rates. My SIL has been with Disney for almost 18 years and B almost 10 years. My hubby doesn't like Disney, so he stays home. Because of such a good discount I have had four trips on Disney ship including the new one.
I have been taking lots of medicine in the past few days, morning right now are my worst. Luckily I have this IPAD which help me, since I am having hard time sitting at my desk top computer. My SIL thought they left the one lead in till the surgery, she didn't know that they were taken out, so when I complain about the pain she thought the simulator wasn't working, she was surprise when I told her they took them out. For some reason the few nights I have had hard time sleeping, I wake up everytime I turn.
Here are a couple pictures

Here is my birthday cake

25 days and counting for surgery

Ok this has been one of my best day! My son got marry and I have a granddaughter now

26 days and counting

Well it's been a busy two days, R got his third stripe for takweo , so he will get tested for his orange belt next Saturday. On Friday my sister in law and R and myself are going to Disney on Friday for my birthday. Then Saturday we have the last day for soccer and then movie night for R at takweo. R loves Disney so that should be a fun day. I just got some pictures of my son and my future daughter in law

This was taken in Cocoa Florida, by the Indiana River.

28 days and a wake up

My hubby came home yesterday, it great to have him home even if it only for a little while. This is going to be a busy week. Today we takweo and soccer (last one for the season) with R and his parents will be there. Then tomorrow I turn 59, yes I gave my age, anyway I have our annual mother daughter brunch. This year we are doing at IHOP, Cocoa Beach. This the Beta Sigma Phi, women group, that I have been involved in since the day I was born, my mom join while she was labor with me.
We tried to enroll R in VPK, but we had to make an appointment for it. We are trying to get him to the same school his father went, he also already knows this school, he goes there for speech class.
Someone asked about my back,  I have had two fusion in the lower back in 08, 09. They solve the pain until last August. My surgeon want to fusion one in the center of my back and one of the lower one he did in 08, and he took the hardware out in 09, so now that one also need to be fusion again. My insurance along with many other insurance they are now deny any type of fusion, I tried from September through December to get it approve and failed. So they tried to burn the nerves that failed.so now I am getting the SCS put in. They put in for approval of this on Friday and they already approved. So my surgery date is June 4.

29 day and a wake up

If you are wondering why I am doing a count down, I used to do it in the Army when we getting ready to move or end of temporary duty somewhere away from my family.
Ok, my back is hurting so bad right now, I am not sure if it the pain in my back or if it is the stress from my son and his girlfriend. We are having no communication now, of course it's only been 24 hours since I last talked to him, but I m not going to allow myself to call or message him. If he thinks that little of me so be it. He can have his little family without the support of his family, which is the choice he is making.
I got my bill for the leads of the SCS, it has to be paid for before the surgery, luckily we have a saving and my insurance does a max cap of 3,000 dollars for the year. I am 1500.00 right now, so the most I can be charged is another 1500.00. At least that one last thing to worry about.
Just got a text my husband is about three hours from home, he will be home for about two weeks then head for NC where are cabin is. The cabin is in Murphy, NC, the cabin is about 20 minutes from town, so you better make a list when you go into town.
Well I will finish this up later on today.

Count down starts for the spinal cord simulator

THIRTY DAYS and a wake up and the time couldn't go by faster. I hate feeling the way I am and not knowing how to stop. I've gone into a deep hold and going to take a while to get of it. I don't want to anyone or see anyone for a while. I knew a year ago not to get emotional involved in this little girl, that it was only going to call heart pain, I was right. I guess with my back hurting and being depress and just don't think I should have to feel like this. I am at the point right now I am not sure if I want the surgery or not. I am screwing up any summer plans we have. I don't feel like I even want to watch Rory right now.
Want to guess when Mike might call me..... I would bet maybe my birthday if he is reminded by someone, or maybe Mother's Day since it is so national known. It would not be the first time I haven't heard from him for either occasion, he has a bad memory on holidays for anything so it's not a biggy any more when he forget.
I just don't know how all this start, me feeling sorry for myself one night and told Mike for your birthday why don't you get marry, I was kinda kidding caused I knew he would do it, then it went up hill for a while until her parents said being divorce for only 18 months wasn't long enough, it use to be Mike didn't make enough money, but now if it wasn't for Mike they would not have a roof over there heads. Anyway A's parents said if they got marry on my birthday they would never talk to her again. So what happen Mike took her side and saids he want a big wedding so it's time to plan, like I didn't know this. I planed our 25th anniversary party, it took me a year to plan it. Well Mike told me what was going on over the phone and I exploded. Now we aren't talking but that's okay. I told A that
I need my 200.00 back in fifteen days, the money I spend on helping her get her license to start a house cleaner business. One problem she doesn't know how to really clean a house the way it should. Ok I have written enough for right now.
Well day has gotten a little better, I at least talked to my son I still not over him not having enough respect to come over to see me. I think this is going to take a little time to get over.
Rory and heather came over so did my mom so I am feeling little better.
Tomorrow will be another day.

Friday end of the week

Good morning it's a raining Friday morning. Not sure how today or this weekend is going to be. I don't have children sermon this Sunday so one less worry.
Last night was a like being on top of the mountains and then a drop. Haven't heard anything today so don't what's going on. It sometime seems like my son said he be here but it doesn't happen. I know I am not a priority but that's okay, but I wish they say something follow through or at least call me.
The raining weather has caused my back to hurt today, so I have no interest in doing anything right now.
Well today couldn't get worst if it try, my son's girlfriend choose her mother over my son, if they get marry this month she won't talk to her, really mom, grow up or A grow up and show who you really love instead of just letting him support you. Yes I angry with her and hurt by Mike. But like my son Swiss get over it Mom.
I guess I did get good news I got my surgery date June 4, a month away.

Another day of no answers

What a day, between the pain in my back. My son and his future wife and the bouncing back and forth on getting marry this year or wait a year. A's parents have been a pain about all of this and I am tired of it. Just let the kids make up their own mind. I still haven't heard from the DR and now I am just shanking my head and whiching this would be over with, the surgery, the wedding and everything else. I am tired of crying and wondering if the phone ring what going to happen now.
If nothing else this blog gives me the time to write how I feel and this wedding has brought up a little bit of bad memories that I have stuff down so far down that I didn't know I still had.
We only have one son and we adopted him 24 years ago, it's been tough years but we have never gave up on him, through rough times and I mean rough times, I know for a fact there was time he didn't have any food in his place, but he grew from all of that. He is 32 years old and working as an assistance manger at Denny's and trying raise his stepdaughter, who is 18 months old and his girlfriend starting a new business and he is doing great under all the pressure. And I am sorry I haven't been nice about this wedding, but we will survive this too. It would be easier with this if my husband  was here, but he is coming home on Sunday which I will be glad.

Another raining Wednesday

The kids are gone for the weekend. My husband comes home on Sunday to help prepare for our son wedding and his reception. My back has been hurting all day and tomorrow it will probably be worse tomorrow since I move around lot of heavy stuff today. I sure hope I hear from the Dr soon for a date for surgery. I really want it to be after May 18, because I have my son getting marry and have to planned a reception with no help from the bride parents . People can be mean for no good reason.
Okay nothing else today. Goodnight