Thursday, May 9, 2013
26 days and counting
Well it's been a busy two days, R got his third stripe for takweo , so he will get tested for his orange belt next Saturday. On Friday my sister in law and R and myself are going to Disney on Friday for my birthday. Then Saturday we have the last day for soccer and then movie night for R at takweo. R loves Disney so that should be a fun day. I just got some pictures of my son and my future daughter in law
This was taken in Cocoa Florida, by the Indiana River.
Monday, May 6, 2013
28 days and a wake up
My hubby came home yesterday, it great to have him home even if it only for a little while. This is going to be a busy week. Today we takweo and soccer (last one for the season) with R and his parents will be there. Then tomorrow I turn 59, yes I gave my age, anyway I have our annual mother daughter brunch. This year we are doing at IHOP, Cocoa Beach. This the Beta Sigma Phi, women group, that I have been involved in since the day I was born, my mom join while she was labor with me.
We tried to enroll R in VPK, but we had to make an appointment for it. We are trying to get him to the same school his father went, he also already knows this school, he goes there for speech class.
Someone asked about my back, I have had two fusion in the lower back in 08, 09. They solve the pain until last August. My surgeon want to fusion one in the center of my back and one of the lower one he did in 08, and he took the hardware out in 09, so now that one also need to be fusion again. My insurance along with many other insurance they are now deny any type of fusion, I tried from September through December to get it approve and failed. So they tried to burn the nerves that failed.so now I am getting the SCS put in. They put in for approval of this on Friday and they already approved. So my surgery date is June 4.
We tried to enroll R in VPK, but we had to make an appointment for it. We are trying to get him to the same school his father went, he also already knows this school, he goes there for speech class.
Someone asked about my back, I have had two fusion in the lower back in 08, 09. They solve the pain until last August. My surgeon want to fusion one in the center of my back and one of the lower one he did in 08, and he took the hardware out in 09, so now that one also need to be fusion again. My insurance along with many other insurance they are now deny any type of fusion, I tried from September through December to get it approve and failed. So they tried to burn the nerves that failed.so now I am getting the SCS put in. They put in for approval of this on Friday and they already approved. So my surgery date is June 4.
29 day and a wake up
If you are wondering why I am doing a count down, I used to do it in the Army when we getting ready to move or end of temporary duty somewhere away from my family.
Ok, my back is hurting so bad right now, I am not sure if it the pain in my back or if it is the stress from my son and his girlfriend. We are having no communication now, of course it's only been 24 hours since I last talked to him, but I m not going to allow myself to call or message him. If he thinks that little of me so be it. He can have his little family without the support of his family, which is the choice he is making.
I got my bill for the leads of the SCS, it has to be paid for before the surgery, luckily we have a saving and my insurance does a max cap of 3,000 dollars for the year. I am 1500.00 right now, so the most I can be charged is another 1500.00. At least that one last thing to worry about.
Just got a text my husband is about three hours from home, he will be home for about two weeks then head for NC where are cabin is. The cabin is in Murphy, NC, the cabin is about 20 minutes from town, so you better make a list when you go into town.
Well I will finish this up later on today.
Ok, my back is hurting so bad right now, I am not sure if it the pain in my back or if it is the stress from my son and his girlfriend. We are having no communication now, of course it's only been 24 hours since I last talked to him, but I m not going to allow myself to call or message him. If he thinks that little of me so be it. He can have his little family without the support of his family, which is the choice he is making.
I got my bill for the leads of the SCS, it has to be paid for before the surgery, luckily we have a saving and my insurance does a max cap of 3,000 dollars for the year. I am 1500.00 right now, so the most I can be charged is another 1500.00. At least that one last thing to worry about.
Just got a text my husband is about three hours from home, he will be home for about two weeks then head for NC where are cabin is. The cabin is in Murphy, NC, the cabin is about 20 minutes from town, so you better make a list when you go into town.
Well I will finish this up later on today.
Saturday, May 4, 2013
Count down starts for the spinal cord simulator
THIRTY DAYS and a wake up and the time couldn't go by faster. I hate feeling the way I am and not knowing how to stop. I've gone into a deep hold and going to take a while to get of it. I don't want to anyone or see anyone for a while. I knew a year ago not to get emotional involved in this little girl, that it was only going to call heart pain, I was right. I guess with my back hurting and being depress and just don't think I should have to feel like this. I am at the point right now I am not sure if I want the surgery or not. I am screwing up any summer plans we have. I don't feel like I even want to watch Rory right now.
Want to guess when Mike might call me..... I would bet maybe my birthday if he is reminded by someone, or maybe Mother's Day since it is so national known. It would not be the first time I haven't heard from him for either occasion, he has a bad memory on holidays for anything so it's not a biggy any more when he forget.
I just don't know how all this start, me feeling sorry for myself one night and told Mike for your birthday why don't you get marry, I was kinda kidding caused I knew he would do it, then it went up hill for a while until her parents said being divorce for only 18 months wasn't long enough, it use to be Mike didn't make enough money, but now if it wasn't for Mike they would not have a roof over there heads. Anyway A's parents said if they got marry on my birthday they would never talk to her again. So what happen Mike took her side and saids he want a big wedding so it's time to plan, like I didn't know this. I planed our 25th anniversary party, it took me a year to plan it. Well Mike told me what was going on over the phone and I exploded. Now we aren't talking but that's okay. I told A that
I need my 200.00 back in fifteen days, the money I spend on helping her get her license to start a house cleaner business. One problem she doesn't know how to really clean a house the way it should. Ok I have written enough for right now.
Well day has gotten a little better, I at least talked to my son I still not over him not having enough respect to come over to see me. I think this is going to take a little time to get over.
Rory and heather came over so did my mom so I am feeling little better.
Tomorrow will be another day.
Want to guess when Mike might call me..... I would bet maybe my birthday if he is reminded by someone, or maybe Mother's Day since it is so national known. It would not be the first time I haven't heard from him for either occasion, he has a bad memory on holidays for anything so it's not a biggy any more when he forget.
I just don't know how all this start, me feeling sorry for myself one night and told Mike for your birthday why don't you get marry, I was kinda kidding caused I knew he would do it, then it went up hill for a while until her parents said being divorce for only 18 months wasn't long enough, it use to be Mike didn't make enough money, but now if it wasn't for Mike they would not have a roof over there heads. Anyway A's parents said if they got marry on my birthday they would never talk to her again. So what happen Mike took her side and saids he want a big wedding so it's time to plan, like I didn't know this. I planed our 25th anniversary party, it took me a year to plan it. Well Mike told me what was going on over the phone and I exploded. Now we aren't talking but that's okay. I told A that
I need my 200.00 back in fifteen days, the money I spend on helping her get her license to start a house cleaner business. One problem she doesn't know how to really clean a house the way it should. Ok I have written enough for right now.
Well day has gotten a little better, I at least talked to my son I still not over him not having enough respect to come over to see me. I think this is going to take a little time to get over.
Rory and heather came over so did my mom so I am feeling little better.
Tomorrow will be another day.
Friday, May 3, 2013
Friday end of the week
Good morning it's a raining Friday morning. Not sure how today or this weekend is going to be. I don't have children sermon this Sunday so one less worry.
Last night was a like being on top of the mountains and then a drop. Haven't heard anything today so don't what's going on. It sometime seems like my son said he be here but it doesn't happen. I know I am not a priority but that's okay, but I wish they say something follow through or at least call me.
The raining weather has caused my back to hurt today, so I have no interest in doing anything right now.
Well today couldn't get worst if it try, my son's girlfriend choose her mother over my son, if they get marry this month she won't talk to her, really mom, grow up or A grow up and show who you really love instead of just letting him support you. Yes I angry with her and hurt by Mike. But like my son Swiss get over it Mom.
I guess I did get good news I got my surgery date June 4, a month away.
Last night was a like being on top of the mountains and then a drop. Haven't heard anything today so don't what's going on. It sometime seems like my son said he be here but it doesn't happen. I know I am not a priority but that's okay, but I wish they say something follow through or at least call me.
The raining weather has caused my back to hurt today, so I have no interest in doing anything right now.
Well today couldn't get worst if it try, my son's girlfriend choose her mother over my son, if they get marry this month she won't talk to her, really mom, grow up or A grow up and show who you really love instead of just letting him support you. Yes I angry with her and hurt by Mike. But like my son Swiss get over it Mom.
I guess I did get good news I got my surgery date June 4, a month away.
Thursday, May 2, 2013
Another day of no answers
What a day, between the pain in my back. My son and his future wife and the bouncing back and forth on getting marry this year or wait a year. A's parents have been a pain about all of this and I am tired of it. Just let the kids make up their own mind. I still haven't heard from the DR and now I am just shanking my head and whiching this would be over with, the surgery, the wedding and everything else. I am tired of crying and wondering if the phone ring what going to happen now.
If nothing else this blog gives me the time to write how I feel and this wedding has brought up a little bit of bad memories that I have stuff down so far down that I didn't know I still had.
We only have one son and we adopted him 24 years ago, it's been tough years but we have never gave up on him, through rough times and I mean rough times, I know for a fact there was time he didn't have any food in his place, but he grew from all of that. He is 32 years old and working as an assistance manger at Denny's and trying raise his stepdaughter, who is 18 months old and his girlfriend starting a new business and he is doing great under all the pressure. And I am sorry I haven't been nice about this wedding, but we will survive this too. It would be easier with this if my husband was here, but he is coming home on Sunday which I will be glad.
If nothing else this blog gives me the time to write how I feel and this wedding has brought up a little bit of bad memories that I have stuff down so far down that I didn't know I still had.
We only have one son and we adopted him 24 years ago, it's been tough years but we have never gave up on him, through rough times and I mean rough times, I know for a fact there was time he didn't have any food in his place, but he grew from all of that. He is 32 years old and working as an assistance manger at Denny's and trying raise his stepdaughter, who is 18 months old and his girlfriend starting a new business and he is doing great under all the pressure. And I am sorry I haven't been nice about this wedding, but we will survive this too. It would be easier with this if my husband was here, but he is coming home on Sunday which I will be glad.
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
Another raining Wednesday
The kids are gone for the weekend. My husband comes home on Sunday to help prepare for our son wedding and his reception. My back has been hurting all day and tomorrow it will probably be worse tomorrow since I move around lot of heavy stuff today. I sure hope I hear from the Dr soon for a date for surgery. I really want it to be after May 18, because I have my son getting marry and have to planned a reception with no help from the bride parents . People can be mean for no good reason.
Okay nothing else today. Goodnight
Okay nothing else today. Goodnight
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