Labor Day last summer weekend.

When we retired I thought life would be easy, less drama then at work.oops not true right now between 4 year old nephew who just started preschool two weeks ago, has now decide he doesn't like riding the bus, in the afternoon here in Florida it's still very hot a 2:00 PM, and he doesn't get any a/c because he has to sit behind the driver. That because he so small he has to be buckle in up front. He doesn't do well in hot weather, go figure born and live his life in Florida. So we decided (his mom and me) he could ride the bus in the morning and we would pick him up in the afternoon. Now he doesn't want to ride the bus at all, so the battle is on.
Another thing to stress me out my son and his wife and their daughter and her mother. The couple moved to a cheaper apartment in a town 10 minutes south of where they are now. My son works nights 6 Pm to 6 Am as a manger at Denny's. he had Friday off and found out that they could move in earlier then they expected. They moved till 9;00 PM on Friday and got up at 8:00 to finished, around 4:00 PM,our son was exhausted and had to go to work on Saturday night. So we help finished moving them. We get up there and our daughter in law's mother calls her and exploded because she could not reach her for 12 hours, she call hospitals and etc. Her mother is a little messed up in the head, she was going to come up and take her car, even though the kids haven't missed a payment. It end up because the AC went out in the apartment, my DIL and granddaughter spend the last two nights here. They left this morning but no way of knowing they may be at out front door tonight.
And to top everything going my mom health is getting worst, so now she has no choice then to moved in with us and put her house on the market. So we are putting things in storage and changing room around.
I did go on a cruise with my SIL and my nephew last weekend which was fun except my back was killing me, luckily when I got back on Monday I saw my Pain DR and he gave me some kind of shot and it works.
Well I think I have wrote enough today, hopefully next couple days will get better!!!

Long time in blogging

Good Morning from the warm state of Florida. Sorry it's been so long in blogging, don't really have a good excuse. So what have I been doing since my last blog. My hubby and our 4 years old and myself went to our cabin for a couple weeks. The drive was that bad with the 4 years old, he only ask once after we had stopped to do a potty stop that he really needed to go now, he was able to wait for the next rest stop.

Ourlittle movie star!

He keeps us in check, here a few pictures from NC

 His Pawpaw helping on th the motor cycle

I can do it by myself!!

Another week start

We had a great family late 4 of July celebration. My sister in law was working the 4th at Disney world. We had ribs and all the works that goes long with it. We even went swimming for couple hours. My older nephew had to give a speech to at least 7 people, so after we finish supper and swimming, we all set down in the family room to hear his speech. He did on application for the IPad and iPhone, talked about three different app. He did well, it's for his speech class he is doing at our college this summer, he will be a senior this year at our local high school. His younger brother who is  4, he had a question it was cute, he asked so etching to do with gas buddy app. His PaPa kept the four years old quiet through the 7 minute speech, but when it came to Q/A session, we all kina ignore the four years old till it was finished, then he came over and asked his question "What did the two trucks say to each other " hey the gas here is too expensive, lets used our gas buddy to find cheaper gas". We all laugh that he actually had a question about the subject. You gotta love four years olds.
Well we are leaving for NC on Thursday, with Rory coming along with us for the first week, then he will go with his parents to NC and VA. We stay up in NC for a total three weeks.

Sad day

I got this morning think it would be a quiet day. Last night on the 11 o'clock news, I saw them talking about a murder/suicde of an elderly couple, both my husband and myself said we recognize the street name, and turned the TV off but before that I thought to myself it's someone from our church. I got this up this morning and read a little article about but didn't think anything else about it. My mom called me about ten o'clock this morning, I could instantly tell something was wrong, my heart I thought she was in trouble, all I could say " Mom what is it", it took about 30 second to be able to tell me who the couple was, my jaw drop. We all knew the husband has been sick this past year and his wife had to take back and forth to the DR and she had family in Daytona Beach about hour from here that she was taking care of. Now there are just lots of unanswered questions on why. Tough day for all.
I am feeling lots better then I have in some time. Only had to take one pain pill today.

Happy Fourth of July

Happy 4th of July !!
It's been a quiet week, started off with me going to the Dr because the SCS was burning but it had stop now, they were afraid it was a infection, but I knew it wasn't because I was feeling ill at all. All is cleared now. We are planning on leaving for NC on July 11 for about 3 weeks or so. We are taking Rory with us for the first week then his parents will pick him up when they start their vacation for two weeks in NC and VA.
My daughter in law and I are have tough time with telling each other the truth. I haven't figure out what her problem is except she stuck on herself and she has my son wrapped around her little finger. She is lazy and won't work, can find so many things wrong with herself. They used the hospital as a walk in clinic. My son works 55 hours a week to support her and her daughter. I love the little girl, but also that at any time she can say I am done with my son and then her daughter would be out of our life. Her parents hasn't accepted their marriage or my son. I haven't talk to them since the little girl first birthday last September.

Three weeks since surgery

I went to the pain dr everything looks ok, he didn't release from my restriction, not for another month for next appointment. He did order some new cream to put on the muscle near the back where the SCS is located. The name of the cream is Total Spain Soultion, it's being mail to me. I only have to pay 17. 00 for it. My biggest concerns are that I have a busting sensation where the SCS is located. I am not sure what causing it. I did received the cream for my back not sure if its helping or not.
Went to see my Cancer DR today, everything is good, I am 8 years survivor!! The DR said when I get to the ten years marked I can go down to once a year instead of every six months. Good thing, I have good insurance.
Any of you living in central Florida are tired of trial of George Zimmerman vs state.  That all on TV for the next 2 to 4 weeks. Boring sometime but also interesting when people lied on the stand and think they are getting away with it.
Oh we'll my granddaughter is coming over to spend the night. Hopefully her mom will get the job she is going to interview for!!!

New week same pain

It's two weeks since I had the SCS put in my back, it's doing okay. I am trying to get out and do more now, that I can do. We have had my nephew here like usually, my hubby and I wish with the help of his parents to get him on a schedule before school starts in a month and half, Rory will be starting VPK at our local school (same school) his father went to many years ago.
Starting to get what we call hot weather here in Florida. Of course my hubby loves working outside when it's so hot (not)!
Well I just wanted to get this one finished sometime today. I guess I have been depress lately, for no good reasons, just tired of the pain and everything that's goes with it.
I have enjoyed really other people logs about their journey. I really luckily I have a great family that helps me out everyday.
I need to start helping my mom pack her stuff into our home, we to get the house ready to put it up for sale. Our lives are going to change and we know this as we did this from 1999 - 2002 we had my 99 years old grandmother lived with us after my dad died. We were both working then so this should be a little more easier since we retired this will be a lot easier for both of us.

11 days post ops

I guess I did too much the last few days and its catching up with me today, I kinda of you yesterday because late evening. My one bandage came off yesterday and incision looks good. I have a little pain at one of the incision, but it's looking good.
My step son is doing well since his triple pass surgery
We had a great supper with my son and his family.
Time to get ready to go to bed.

My hubby is back from GA

Well my husband is back from GA. My step son did have a heart attack on Tuesday and on Thursday he had triple bypass. He is doing well, he survived because he has good health and good physical being. My hubby was glad he went to see his two sons in GA. Nothing else he good do up there so he came home.
I went out to lunch with one of  my friends, we had a good time, she going through a lot taking care of her 17 years old grandson who has lots of issues. I have walked in her shoes before and knows where she is coming from.
My SCS is working well, still adjusting to it. My bandage just came off where the battery is.
I just have to watch I don't over do it.

Recovery without my hubby

Last evening after supper, my hubby got a phone call and I could hear from his side that someone was in the hospital. After he got off the phone, hubby said his oldest son had an heart attack early morning (Wednesday), and he is having a Triple bypass at 8:00 at this morning. Of course they are 6 hours north of us in GA (Savannah). Could his exwife (Jason's) mother call us when this happen, since he lives with her, the answer is a big NO. She still holds hard feeling after 34 years being divorce, and John and I have been married 33 years. Jason is 41 years old, he young and strong hopefully everything will go ok with the surgery. My biggest worry is my hubby, he doesn't show his emotions very often but when he does I like to be there to help him for whatever happen.
I couldn't make the trip because of my recent surgery, but I have plenty of family member to help me out.
Some one asks what company I have for me SCS, it Medtronic. I getting used to it still, not having to take so many pain pills. The two incsion of where I was cut on still bother me some. My hubby warned me not to over do it.
Well I will finish this later on.

Week since surgery

Hi it's been a week since surgery and each day it gets better then the day before. I saw the DR yesterday and all is going well. He said no pole dancing for me for a while. It's a joke, I am not coordinate enough to do a pole dancing. The rep for the simulator got a couple more programs for the simulator. He also saids it take a while for the healing of the surgery on my back. Luckily I have a great husband who has helped me through this journey and he continues to do. Now other members of my family not so much, they think after two days after the surgery I should be up and moving without any problems.
You have to get used to having the machine on and it's feels like a current in your body. I took a shower today for the first time in a week and did it feel good, I didn't let the water run directly on my back, I am afraid my back isn't completed healed enough to have the water pour down on my back.
Differnt subject, my four years old nephew went to takweo and got a little scare when they tried to show them what to do when a bad person tries to hurt you. He doesn't like loud noises and I guess the room was noises then usually, my hubby had to up and comfort him, he was so scare he said he didn't want takweo anymore. Hopefully by tomorrow he will change his mind.
Sorry I haven't written more but I am still not up to para yet.

A wake up

Well it's Monday evening before surgery I have to be there by 6 so I guess I am one of the Firestone. So yes I nervous about it. Will probably not RN on my iPad for a while, so good luck to all

3 days and a wake up

Just talked to the hospital pre-admission to the hospital, this the first for me to go to this hospital, it's one of the newer hospital. I have to admitted the ride up to our cabin was not a fun one. I suffered all day yesterday and today. Good thing I have such husband who does almost everything around the house.

4 days and a wake up

Well we are up here in the beautiful state of NC. We are only here till Sunday and then we head home to get ready for surgery on Tuesday. I took this picture of the roses outside our back up here at out cabin

Eight days and a wake up

It's Sunday morning I am sitting watching Golden Girls, now you know how bored I am. My back is still hurting me but I am finding out I have to watch which medicine I take will the pain pills.
Probably will be a slow Sunday with out Rory being, and for some reasons my son and daughter-in law have decide for some reason to stop talking to me not sure if something I said or did. They only been married almost 3 weeks, so I hope there isn't any problem in love land.

Nine days and A wake up

Ok it's Saturday and memorial weekend, when I was growning up this meant the beginning of summer. Now being grown, served 20 years in the Army and having too many to count that has or it still serving in the military. No, I didn't grow up in a military home, my dad did serve two years in Coast Guard, my mom was a nurse not in the service. Yet my oldest brother served 26 years in the Air Force , my second oldest brother served 30 years in the Army, and I served 20 years in the Army with my husband spend 24 years in the Army. I still have serving in the Army 2 nephews and one son. I never saw war, so I guess I was luckily on that few point. My nephews and son and cousin have seen war. My one cousin committ suicide a couple years ago. My nephew who got out after serving 14 years and too many trip to wars zone messed him.
But I am grateful for our service people, they do deserve to be honor or memory of them. We have too many your service people still dying.

Ten days and a wake up

I thought you might enjoy some of these pictures from around house here in Florida. These were taken today. My husband started planted this three years ago and this is where it is now.

My

These outside my front door, the flowers don't know it's not Christmas .

11 days and a wake up

I went and saw the Dr, was supposed to be short and sign paper again. I got in and out before my schedule time so I guess that was a good thing. The nurse who took my blood pressure with a broken cup, it squeeze my arm so tight it left a red mark. Took three times to finally get my blood pressure. Of course the DR came in for 20seconds and left. I signed the paper and was out of the office. Now All I have to wait now. I can't say the time can go fast enough. We have a quiet weekend planned, sic Rory's and his family are out camping till Saturday and then he will be back on Monday.

12 days and a wake up

Today started with seeing my 4 years old nephew sleeping next to our bed. What a great way to wake with the little voice saying "Good morning".
I then head down to my DR office to get my blood drawn for the surgery, to find out they couldn't do all the tests. So I turned around and headed for back north to Rockledge to go to the hospital to get every thing done in one trip. So tomorrow I will go and once again sign my paperwork for the procedure.
I can hardly wait to get this over with so I can start living again.

13 days and a wake up

I just got a call from the Dr, I have to go down and resigned the paper work caused its been 30 days since I signed the paperwork. Only the 3rd time I have signed them, hopefully this is the last time. Raining weather here so my back is really hurting. At least the rain has started.
Tomorrow I am going Down to do my blood work for my procedure, it's less then two weeks now.

14 days and a wake-up

A new week starts today, Rory stated all night with us, his dad had overtime. Hubby is out putting a fence at our rental property. I wish the next two weeks would just fly by, so I can get this surgery and get I with my life. I am tired if being in pain almost 95 percent of the time of the day.
Today Rory has takweo today at 5 and then the rest of the day is free. I heard another one of my friend fusion was canceled for this week, they didn't believe when I told then for some reason all insurances aren't approving fusion, yet they thought they got approved but found out two days before surgery was schedule they canceled it. I feel sorry for them, at least my DR doesn't did approve my surgery so I didn't have my hope built up by the Dr. I would lie if  I didn't say I have fear for this up coming surgery. I really just want my life back to be able function like I used to.
Rory did good at takwon was good today. He is finally in bed.
Closing this for the day.

15 days and a wake up and another week starts

It's Sunday morning and not a lot sleep last night because of my back and how I couldn't get comfortable in bed. My older brother and his wife leaves for GA this morning, and life will get back to normal.
My back is hurting more today because of  the weather. I think it's going to be a lazy day till Rory gets here. We get him for four days this week. His father has overtime today at Disney.
Back from having supper with mom and older brother and Rory and my hubby. Another week starts and should be a busy week. John is putting a new fence up at our rental property.
Not much else to write about will write more tomorrow .

Rory big day and Tyler big day

No matter what age you are sometime something you do is big for the day. My 4 year old nephew is getting his orange belt in takweo and my 18 year old nephew is graduation from high school. One thing we can be glad about one is at 10 in the morning and the other one is at 7 in the evening.
I had rough night last night betweens our two dogs and my back I got little or no sleep.
Well Rory did well today , even after not having a good night sleep. We went over to his house for supper tonight.
I decided not to go to Tyler graduation from high school as I would have to climb the bleacher, and after last night I just didn't feel up to it.
Mike ( my son) is meeting with my older brother to see if he can help him buy a house. Hopefully it will work, Mike need a break right now.

Time for family meeting about our Mom

Well today should be an interesting day for us, my three siblings and myself are going to sit down and talk to mom about her future. My one older brother has a higher price range of living then we do. He lives in GA in an expensive area, but he can afford it, he has a house out of Southern Living book, on the other hand we live in Florida a very modest house, that we enjoy living in. I have no problem having Mom move in with us, but I don't want to complete remodel our home.
Well the lasagna is made, dishes are all clean, only thing left to do is salad plate and set the tables. My SIL is coming over to help me with that. I am only having 10 for supper but still take time and energy to do all of it.
Supper went well no one kill each other with all my sibling, tomorrow will be another big day. Takweon will be going on Saturday, for Rory to get his orange belt.

18 days and a wake up before my SCS surgery

We got up early this morning as our nephew was coming for an early visit today, both parents working today, one at Disney and the other one has jury duty. I am waiting for my DIL to come over to clean the house. I will be taking Rory to speech class today, his last class for the summer and then he start VPK in August. I cant believe he will be 5 in October, where or where does the time go.
A busy weekend, my second oldest brother is coming in from GA with his wife for his grandson graduation from high school and then my nephew goes for his first orange belt for taekwondo on Saturday. Plus this weekend we are preparing the family for my mom to move into our home sometime in the next couple months. Going to be a busy time, and change for us. From 1999 - 2002 we had my paternal grandmother (age 99 when she died) lived with us and both my husband and I worked full time and it was rough. Since we are both retired this should be a little easier, thank goodness for my hubby who is so much help that I couldn't do without him So we start our new life with my mother, at least this time it should be a little easier with both of my brother living here in Cocoa area to help out. I have my younger brother who live in the same neighborhood and hopefully my son will be moving into his grandmother house and that will be more help.
Here is a picture of Rory and Curious George

 Today has been somewhat busy, my DIL came to clean my house, of course for some reason when someone is coming clean you clean so they don't really see how dirty your house really is, I used to laugh mom cleaning before her clean lady came,now I am doing the same thing.
I took my nephew to his last day of speech class today before summer break. My SIL didn't get selected for jury duty.
I then went to try to find a bed for my mom. Went to Badcock, looks like they might be cheapest for the adjustable bed we are looking for.
Tomorrow will be busy as I am feeding my family for a family meeting, to discuss my mother moving in with us. I know when that happens my life will change.

19 days and A wake up

Today is a big day we are going to go see Curiours George at the library, my nephew had been talking about this for the past month, I just hope it measure up to all he expect. He is only four so anything like this will excite him.
My back still giving me a hard time, now my stomach is giving me problem so I have to watch the pain medicine. If it wasn't one then its something else.
Well I started this yesterday, but with Rory being here, I share my Ipad with him and just trying to find things for him to do keeps me busy.
I hopping to go to our cabin in NC before my surgery, but not sure if we will get there with babysitting duty and all.
My brother who lives in GA is coming in tomorrow (Thursday) for his oldest grandson graduation from high school, he has a full scholarship to Florida State University, this really a great thing for his family, as my niece has been a single mom and raised two son. My niece we always worry about how she would do being a mom, Took het couple years to figure the world out, but she did and has two good sons, she can be proud of them.

20 days and a wake up

Well we had a good Mother's Day supper at one of our local restaurant with four generation of family   At one table, the youngest being 20 months and the oldest 88 years old. My mom wasn't feeling very good so became the grumpy old lady, I love her but there are time that I get so frustrate with her. The sort good - bad news, she is moving with us within the next 2 months. She lives around the block from us, so it won't take long to move her. We are hopeful that my son and his family will be moving into her home. In our subdivision we have my brother and SIL and young nephew also live in this subdivision. There at three other families who have majority of their family living here.
Well the day is growning to a close, my granddaughter came to visit for a little while this evening. Just put Rory to bed. So I'll close for the evening.

Mother's Day and 21 days and a wake up

Happy Mother's Day to all. Our family are going to an local steakhouse that we have been going to for almost 10 years. It's a tradition we started, because it made no sense for Mom or me to cooked meals for the family. We just take turn paying for it each year, this year my son will be there with his new wife and my granddaughter.
My SIL and R my nephew and myself went to Disney, we didn't go in the parks this time caused of my back, but we had fun at the hotel and eating with the cowboys. My B and SIL both work for Disney so we get good rates. My SIL has been with Disney for almost 18 years and B almost 10 years. My hubby doesn't like Disney, so he stays home. Because of such a good discount I have had four trips on Disney ship including the new one.
I have been taking lots of medicine in the past few days, morning right now are my worst. Luckily I have this IPAD which help me, since I am having hard time sitting at my desk top computer. My SIL thought they left the one lead in till the surgery, she didn't know that they were taken out, so when I complain about the pain she thought the simulator wasn't working, she was surprise when I told her they took them out. For some reason the few nights I have had hard time sleeping, I wake up everytime I turn.
Here are a couple pictures

Here is my birthday cake

25 days and counting for surgery

Ok this has been one of my best day! My son got marry and I have a granddaughter now

26 days and counting

Well it's been a busy two days, R got his third stripe for takweo , so he will get tested for his orange belt next Saturday. On Friday my sister in law and R and myself are going to Disney on Friday for my birthday. Then Saturday we have the last day for soccer and then movie night for R at takweo. R loves Disney so that should be a fun day. I just got some pictures of my son and my future daughter in law

This was taken in Cocoa Florida, by the Indiana River.

28 days and a wake up

My hubby came home yesterday, it great to have him home even if it only for a little while. This is going to be a busy week. Today we takweo and soccer (last one for the season) with R and his parents will be there. Then tomorrow I turn 59, yes I gave my age, anyway I have our annual mother daughter brunch. This year we are doing at IHOP, Cocoa Beach. This the Beta Sigma Phi, women group, that I have been involved in since the day I was born, my mom join while she was labor with me.
We tried to enroll R in VPK, but we had to make an appointment for it. We are trying to get him to the same school his father went, he also already knows this school, he goes there for speech class.
Someone asked about my back,  I have had two fusion in the lower back in 08, 09. They solve the pain until last August. My surgeon want to fusion one in the center of my back and one of the lower one he did in 08, and he took the hardware out in 09, so now that one also need to be fusion again. My insurance along with many other insurance they are now deny any type of fusion, I tried from September through December to get it approve and failed. So they tried to burn the nerves that failed.so now I am getting the SCS put in. They put in for approval of this on Friday and they already approved. So my surgery date is June 4.

29 day and a wake up

If you are wondering why I am doing a count down, I used to do it in the Army when we getting ready to move or end of temporary duty somewhere away from my family.
Ok, my back is hurting so bad right now, I am not sure if it the pain in my back or if it is the stress from my son and his girlfriend. We are having no communication now, of course it's only been 24 hours since I last talked to him, but I m not going to allow myself to call or message him. If he thinks that little of me so be it. He can have his little family without the support of his family, which is the choice he is making.
I got my bill for the leads of the SCS, it has to be paid for before the surgery, luckily we have a saving and my insurance does a max cap of 3,000 dollars for the year. I am 1500.00 right now, so the most I can be charged is another 1500.00. At least that one last thing to worry about.
Just got a text my husband is about three hours from home, he will be home for about two weeks then head for NC where are cabin is. The cabin is in Murphy, NC, the cabin is about 20 minutes from town, so you better make a list when you go into town.
Well I will finish this up later on today.

Count down starts for the spinal cord simulator

THIRTY DAYS and a wake up and the time couldn't go by faster. I hate feeling the way I am and not knowing how to stop. I've gone into a deep hold and going to take a while to get of it. I don't want to anyone or see anyone for a while. I knew a year ago not to get emotional involved in this little girl, that it was only going to call heart pain, I was right. I guess with my back hurting and being depress and just don't think I should have to feel like this. I am at the point right now I am not sure if I want the surgery or not. I am screwing up any summer plans we have. I don't feel like I even want to watch Rory right now.
Want to guess when Mike might call me..... I would bet maybe my birthday if he is reminded by someone, or maybe Mother's Day since it is so national known. It would not be the first time I haven't heard from him for either occasion, he has a bad memory on holidays for anything so it's not a biggy any more when he forget.
I just don't know how all this start, me feeling sorry for myself one night and told Mike for your birthday why don't you get marry, I was kinda kidding caused I knew he would do it, then it went up hill for a while until her parents said being divorce for only 18 months wasn't long enough, it use to be Mike didn't make enough money, but now if it wasn't for Mike they would not have a roof over there heads. Anyway A's parents said if they got marry on my birthday they would never talk to her again. So what happen Mike took her side and saids he want a big wedding so it's time to plan, like I didn't know this. I planed our 25th anniversary party, it took me a year to plan it. Well Mike told me what was going on over the phone and I exploded. Now we aren't talking but that's okay. I told A that
I need my 200.00 back in fifteen days, the money I spend on helping her get her license to start a house cleaner business. One problem she doesn't know how to really clean a house the way it should. Ok I have written enough for right now.
Well day has gotten a little better, I at least talked to my son I still not over him not having enough respect to come over to see me. I think this is going to take a little time to get over.
Rory and heather came over so did my mom so I am feeling little better.
Tomorrow will be another day.

Friday end of the week

Good morning it's a raining Friday morning. Not sure how today or this weekend is going to be. I don't have children sermon this Sunday so one less worry.
Last night was a like being on top of the mountains and then a drop. Haven't heard anything today so don't what's going on. It sometime seems like my son said he be here but it doesn't happen. I know I am not a priority but that's okay, but I wish they say something follow through or at least call me.
The raining weather has caused my back to hurt today, so I have no interest in doing anything right now.
Well today couldn't get worst if it try, my son's girlfriend choose her mother over my son, if they get marry this month she won't talk to her, really mom, grow up or A grow up and show who you really love instead of just letting him support you. Yes I angry with her and hurt by Mike. But like my son Swiss get over it Mom.
I guess I did get good news I got my surgery date June 4, a month away.

Another day of no answers

What a day, between the pain in my back. My son and his future wife and the bouncing back and forth on getting marry this year or wait a year. A's parents have been a pain about all of this and I am tired of it. Just let the kids make up their own mind. I still haven't heard from the DR and now I am just shanking my head and whiching this would be over with, the surgery, the wedding and everything else. I am tired of crying and wondering if the phone ring what going to happen now.
If nothing else this blog gives me the time to write how I feel and this wedding has brought up a little bit of bad memories that I have stuff down so far down that I didn't know I still had.
We only have one son and we adopted him 24 years ago, it's been tough years but we have never gave up on him, through rough times and I mean rough times, I know for a fact there was time he didn't have any food in his place, but he grew from all of that. He is 32 years old and working as an assistance manger at Denny's and trying raise his stepdaughter, who is 18 months old and his girlfriend starting a new business and he is doing great under all the pressure. And I am sorry I haven't been nice about this wedding, but we will survive this too. It would be easier with this if my husband  was here, but he is coming home on Sunday which I will be glad.

Another raining Wednesday

The kids are gone for the weekend. My husband comes home on Sunday to help prepare for our son wedding and his reception. My back has been hurting all day and tomorrow it will probably be worse tomorrow since I move around lot of heavy stuff today. I sure hope I hear from the Dr soon for a date for surgery. I really want it to be after May 18, because I have my son getting marry and have to planned a reception with no help from the bride parents . People can be mean for no good reason.
Okay nothing else today. Goodnight

Terrible night with my back

I have been really busy, watching my nephew and getting ready for my one only son is getting marry. They are going to a JP, then on May 17, we are going to have a small reception for them. I wish I could say its a happy time, but the future in-law of my son feels that their daughter should wait till she has been divorce for 3 years. She has been divorce for 18 months, she has an 18 months old baby from that marriage. My son and his future are both 32 years old, they were high school sweethearts and found themselves back together about a year ago. My son loves the baby and plans on adopting her in a year after they have been married. I only have one son and I am thrilled, but with her parents it's making it tough. But just like everything else we will make it.
I got a call from the Dr yesterday and got a scare that me that I would have to pay 20 percent of the total procedure. Starting with 1200.00 for the leads, this would be my part. Now the hospital bill could be over40,000 with me paying 20 percent of that. I was disappointed with and can not afford to pay for this. I called my insurance and found out that my out of pocket expensive for the year is 3000.00 and so far I have spend 1500. So the good news is my cost for the procedure could not be over 1500. So now I wait for the date to have it done and hopefully it won't interfere with my son's wedding and reception.
Today I am going to my general Dr for my pre-op check-up, hopefully everything will go okay.
My older nephew is moving home tomorrow back to GA, and in the next couple months my mom will be coming to move in with us. Life keeps moving on and my front door is a revolving doors for my family.
Well  I went and saw my primary DR and was cleared for surgery.
I just made reservation for my son and his future wife a honeymoon night at Disney for one night. I think they deserve it with all the sh... A's mother is putting them through, so I get to babysit my granddaughter for the evening.
The pain in my back hasn't gotten any better today. Hopefully tomorrow it will be better.
Time close for the night!!!

Trip to the hospital with my mom

Well what started out as a normal day took a turn for other plans about 10:15 AM this morning with my mom took a tumble and cut her arm. After trying to get hold of me and of course I was at my SIL house getting ready to go to the library, mom got hold of Jeff (my younger brother), who is working over at Orlando and was trying to find someone to help our mom. Once mom goes down she had artificial hips and knees and can not get up by herself. Well my brother reached his wife as we were walking out the door to go to the library. Luck has that my mom just lives a block away from us, so we went to her house got her on her feet and got her the car and headed for Port St. John to a walk-in clinic that said it would be an hour wait and they didn't take her insurance. So we got back in the car and head south to Rockledge to our local hospital. We got in and out within hour which was wonderful for us. My mom who has been a nurse for over 65 years, She has forgotten how busy it gets and she was very impatience with the staff. Yet we did get out of there in less then an hour or so. We went to Arby's and ate lunch and then I took her home.
I put my 4 years old nephew down for his nap and I got a rest period, but for a short while I had to go and help mom make her bed.
I then got Rory up from his nap and got him ready for Take won, first time I had to get him dress all by myself. He did get his first blue star, which he was happy about.
Came home now my older nephew isn't feeling good, so hopefully whatever he got won't go through the whole household. Of course my husband left two weeks to his  camping in our RV.
Not much else is going on for right now. Just going to sit down and relax.          

2 days since removal of SCS

Good morning world!! Second day without the SCS and of course the pain has started again. Was hoping it would maybe wait a couple days, but NO!!! It came back to haunt me even worst now.
Not much going on today, John is leaving tomorrow for his two weeks of camping up in northern Florida. Tomorrow we go to the library and out to lunch with my nephew and his mom.
Not much to talk about today.

The SCS was remove today

Good afternoon just got back from the DR and he remove the temporary SCS for a while, while I wait till I get approval for my SCS to be out back in permeantly and get a surgery date. I only hope that it doesn't take very long. But time is what I have to wait for.
Well today have been good, went to see my nephew do taekwondo and his mother went with us and he did good. We then went out to supper and had a good time.
I have had to take two pain pills today, I sure hope my surgery date don't take too long.
Guess I'll close for the evening.

5 days since the implanted

It's a quiet house around here today, Andrew is at work. Rory is with his parents for the weekend. We all had supper together last night. My mother was in one of hers mood, but she is 88 years old so I guess that is to be expected. My back is more sore on where the tape is and it's itches like mad. I think in the middle of the night I turn the SCS on, did notice it till this morning. I have cut down on my pain pills big time. My question I will have to ask when I put the machine on, it's like it goes through my whole body.
I can't wait till I can wash my hair and take a long bath. It really hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be. Hopefully it won't take long for them to put it in permeantly.
Here are some pictures of my family.
Well it's been a quiet day my good friend came over and bought me some cookies and then my mom came over for a little while. Andrew is working today, and then going over to visit with his with his sisters. He will be going home at the end of the week, I think. My hubby is doing his last show for the year, he will be coming home tomorrow  for a couple day. My brother's family is doing the relay for life over in Orlando, I usually do it but with my SCS on my back it was a no go for me. Not much else to talk about right now. Write more tomorrow .

Day 4 with the spinal cord simulator

Day 4 not much is going on right now but watching TV. The simulator seems to be working. I go to the Dr on Monday to see how long it will be before they put it in permeantly. The feel of  the SCS is like a electrical current going through your body. It's a little hard to get used to, but it is helping the pain. I just have to watch myself as I have dropped the hand held remote to handle the simulator a couple time. But at least I haven't broke it knock on wood.
My hubby is gone for his last show for the year. He does Florida living history, he is not from Florida originally, but he knows more history about the state I was born and raised here in Florida. He makes his own clothing for the show. I will post some picture today.

During the trial of the simulation

Well I had the spinal cord simulator was implanted on my spine on Tuesday. Things are going good, my back where the leads were put it sore there but other then that e erything is going great. The site started bleeding a little last night, but John said he the think it stops. I go on Monday to get the leads out and see when they can get them put in permeantly. I have all my hopes on this right now. Don't know what it is but I am a little depress. I have the most wonderful husband and friends and family that I could have.
The day is coming to an end and the pain is a minimal, the worst things is the itching, but I can live with that
Will write more tomorrow .

Now just a wake up

This will be short as I am getting ready to go to bed as my big day is here. I have to get up at 6:30 to be at the office by 7:30. I will posted more tomorrow if I am able.

One day and a wake up

It's Sunday morning and I am watching TV. I am not sure if I am doing this right by not being a blogger, I am just trying.
I don't understand why I have to have all the medical problems. No I am not complaining about everything, just don't really understand.
My hubby comes from one of his last show as a Florida frontiersman, he is really good at this. Not being an original Florida boy, he knows history like its the back of his hand. He has always been there for me. We have been married for over 33 years.
Well my husband just got back from his one to next last show. It was kind of sad as a 29 years old young man overweight died there, he had a heartattcked early this morning. The show was for the Order of the Arrow, they had over 1500 young men there. But all in all it turn out well.
Here is a picture of my hubby and myself couple years ago in Oregon.
Well I can't find it right now will try later.

2days and a wake up

It's Saturday and I am not really doing anything but sitting around. My stomach is still mess up for some reason. Nothing good on TV today. Well I will add more to this later but I am going to show the two little ones that my life better then anything could.
This is my son his daughter and my nephew, these of course was taken at Christmas time. Beside my hubby these three's are the light of my world. I want to get where I can play with the two little ones and ride bikes with them and all the other stuff I am not able to do right now. Time to close for night.

4 days and a wake up

It's been a not good day, my nerves have gotten the best of me. My stomach has not been acting very nice to me. I am worried about the procedure on Tuesday and then my nephew who is living with us is trying to decide if he is going back to GA to live with his parents. I have my own thoughts on that and he will need to make up his own mind. Plus my only son is getting marry, but they can't decide on a date and what kind of wedding they want. His future wife has been married before and has a beautiful daughter, we have already accept her as our granddaughter.
Well I have written this three times today, hopefully I can post this one.

5 days and a wake-up

Well just 5 days and a wake before the procedure. I am getting lots of positive feedback to people who has had this done on their back, more positives the negative ones. I have to admit I am getting scare the closer it gets. My back surgeries didn't scare me as much as this one. No real reason just that I know if it works that they will take it out and have to put it back in a month or later. I am scare that next week I won't beable to do almost anything, but I will make it.

5 days and a wake

If you are wondering why my titles are saying about count down, it goes back to my 20 years in the service, yes I retired with 20 years of active duty and I have been out for almost 20 years. My first ten
Years was easy for me but the last ten years were not fun, one of the reason why back is screw up. Take a 100 pound young woman and have carry a minmu of 50 lb with all the gear on and my rack sack on and then walk a 5 miles in Korea up and down hills. It was a long one year in Korea even with my hubby, because we were both in the service and we came on a single tour, we didn't live live together separate housing, or barracks as I would call it. But we survive that the year over there. We came back to the State of Washington and before we knew we had four kids from two differnt family living with and both my husband were in the army and both of us were high rank in the enlisted rank. That a story for a differnt day.
Today is busy for us, first the library and the my lunch with my sister in law and my nephew (Rory)
And then nap time and then taekwondo for late afternoon and then Rory goes home for the weekend and come back on Monday for his weekly visits with us.
My back has been killing me all day and night. The pain pills right now are a joke, I can't wait till Tuesday to get the trial spine cord simulator. Guess I have wrote enough today.

Seven days and a wake up

The week start, I woke up with pain in my legs and pain in my back. Our granddaughter came over for a couple hours while her mother went looking for a job. We really enjoy having her around. I am trying to get the house in order before the day for my procedure.
Not much to talk about maybe later I'll write about soccer game and his taw one do.
Well we had a great afternoon with our nephew and all his activity. I am going to try and upload his new picture.

9 days and a wake up

Today is Sunday, my hubby 66th birthday. We went out as a family last night to a local barbecue place, we had a nice time.  John went out with someone for lunch today, they have the same birthday.
While he was having lunch, he heard of a possible job for my future daughter in law. Their family (my son) really need to have both of them working to survive in today world.
I drove my mom to church, as she gave her call to my nephew who went to Ga for his reserve training this weekend.
 My back is giving me a hard time, along with my knee. It seems like I can't win for loosing. Oh well life goes on.

10 days and a wake up

11 days and a wake up

Took my mom to get her hair done and to go to the groceries shopping. Came home didn't do much else, it's raining outside so back is really giving me a fit. I had a nice conversation with a friend of mine from church, was nice to talk to her. I think tomorrow we are going to go and celebrate my hubby birthday a day early, so my sister-in-law can go out to dinner with us. Not much to talk about today, sorry.

12 days and a wake up till the procedures

Well today I went to see my pain Dr P, to resigned my paperwork for the procedures, be caused it was over 30 days since a signed the first time. The nice DR answered all my questions, hopefully if tis is successful it won't take as long as they are predicting to do the permanent surgery could take as long as 2 months to get on the schedule at the hospital. It's like it might be a long summer for me. I was or should say I am still hopping to go to NC for the summer to spend time at our cabin. Going to be slow weekend no nephews or grandchild. We are going to celebrate my hubby 66th birthday this weekend. And yea I have to do my taxes this weekend.

Two weeks from today I will get the trial simulator

Ok, 13 days and counting for getting the simulator cord simulator implanted for the trial. I have high hope that this will help my pain in my back. Everyone warn me not to have too high hope that I am not disappointed with procedure. But I have done quite of bit investigation on this matter. I just want to be normal and be able to play with my nephew and my granddaughter, with hurting so much the next day that I am not able to move around at all.

March 24 2013 Day one of my journey

Okay I have decided that I am going to blog about my journey with the Spinal Cord Simulator. The D-Day is April 16 for the trail spinal cord simulator will be put in my back for 6 days. If its a successful then they will surgically put it on my back so I can have it for the pain. I have had two back fusion, one 2008 and another one in 2009  

Day after Easter

Well it's the day after Easter. We had our family dinner here with nine of us. Everything went well until... I went out with Rory (4 years old) and Annaleise (18 months) to play in the back yard. Everything was going great till we started playing with the plastic bat trying play t-ball, Rory is a hard hitter and my head knows it now. Yea I got clobber with the bat and it brought blood. I was hollering for my nephew to go get someone ( I have several medical people in my family) to help me along with me hollering, they finally came out to help me and they were walking slow. Supposedly couldn't hear me since they said I had been playing and hollering before. It in up a small cut and a nice goose egg over my eye.
So today, I am sore from playing and from cooking for the family. I did go to church as I had children sermons, so I brought Annaliese and Rory and one of my older nephew who is living with us went with me to church and had a good time.
The rehap center called today to set up a time for a evaluation, but I told them I would wait till after I get the simulator trial done. For me when I do physical therapy it hurts more then it helps right now.
So today it's taw toe and soccer for Rory not sure if  I will go to both or either. Just depending on how I feel.

Well we are set up for Easter egg hunt tomorrow, hopefully I'll make through the whole thing, right just from today helping set up my back is killing me.

Bad day with pain

Well today has not been a very good day, I have had to take 3 pain pills, more then usual. I haven't done any out of the ordinary today. Yet back hurts.

March 28
Well I started this a couple days ago, but caring for a four years old can keep you busy. I will be starting my journey with spinal cord simulator on April 16.
Little bit about myself, I have been married for 33 years, I am retired from the army, I was in for 20 years and have been retired from the Army 20 years in July 2013. Life goes fast.
I am a survival of breast cancer for 8 years come June. My back problems started in 1998. I have had three surgeries, 1998, 2008, 2009. All three were a successful for a few years. Now I am in need of fusion for S1/L4 and then L1/L2, the top disk has moved 10mm which caused quite a bit of pain. My insurance Tri-Care prime has disapproved this last surgery I need four times since September.
So now my DR are recommending the spinal cord simulator, and my insurance approved. I first have to go through the trial of the simulator and if its successful, they will put in my back. I am holding all my hope that this will work.